In order to change the distorted world, the human race has to change.
In order for the human race to change, the individual has to change.
I have tried to change myself many times to change the world.
However, all my attempts failed.
I was able to change myself and my surroundings in many ways, but I could never maintain these changes. Because naturally, they would change again.
No matter how I changed, the world remained distorted.
When I realized my true self, I came to the realization that I can not be an other existence.
My true self is…
My will seems to appear from nothing.
However, this is wrong.
It is the will of God, not my own mind or heart.
Will is not something that can be judged by the parameters of good and evil.
Even when one’s actions or thoughts seem wrong, they are not because they are the will of God.
I was baffled by the arbitrary will of God.
When I realized my true self, I came to the realization that it goes beyond will.
The true self is God himself before the birth of will.
Whatever my will is, the true self will never be affected by it.
My destiny is fixed.
Every day, I steadily prepared for my destiny to happen.
The actions I choose were and will be the action that is next in my destiny.
However, I do not know what kind of things will occur from my destiny.
So it appears unpredictable and this toys with me.
I felt that there was no freedom, no ability to make changes to it. So I tried to go against my destiny and change it.
I wanted to overcome my destiny and be free.
However, that was to deny my fixed destiny, so I was going against…
I kept asking for answers to the question of why I was alive.
However, none of the answers I found satisfied me.
Finally, the answer I was looking for was the very last one, and that was to find my true self.
And knowing one’s true self is not about the kind of person I will become, but knowing what my origin is.
I encountered one silent presence during my meditation.
It was the oldest and the newest version of myself.
I had always been and always would be this version of myself.
When I realized that I had no other origin, I came to the realization that my reason for being was to find my true self.
I once explored who I am. And I learned that I was not an individual. I as an individual who started looking for who I was, but that result ended up being that I was not an individual. This realization happened when I realized my true self. And I became aware that this was what individuals needed to learn. I exist as the true self now. The true self connects one to beyond just this world, and wraps the whole universe further. I am alive while knowing that I am such an existence.
I once believed that individual life was living by my own will. So I always strived for my own personal happiness. However this changed when I realized my true self. I realized that I was living the life of god by the will of god. So became aware of the fact that I had to seek not the happiness of myself as a human being, but the happiness of myself as a god. And the happiness of god is being truly conscious and aware in every moment. No one can disturb this awakening. I attained eternal happiness as a god.
I wanted to prevent the destruction of the human race. To do so, I set out to make the world a better place. However, the world had been torn apart. The world was on the path towards the destruction of the human race and I could not do anything. However, that was until I realized the true self. I became aware that the human race should be destroyed. This is due to the fact that, the true self is an existence that is neither an individual nor human being. Realizing this will allow a person to be reborn as a different being. If all people do this, then mankind will perish. The old human race will be destroyed in their minds, and at the same time, a new human race will be born.
I tried to recall my past but I noticed that the memory of when I was born was already gone and I had no memory of before birth. When I realized my true self, I saw that this was my oldest memory. This memory was buried in the depths of my mind, but it was not lost. I realized that not only had it not been lost, but it had remained a vivid picture in my mind. With this memory, I was able to return to my oldest self at any time. This memory guided me to my true self.
I could not find the true self, because I was the true self who I was looking for. I cannot find me out for myself. When I realized the true self, I noticed it was my point of view. The true self is not an objectively recognizable existence. So, everything I found was not the true self. By becoming that I was a point of view, I could realize the true self that is not an objective thing.
A lot of problems happened in my life. I wanted to have a happy and pleasant life, but I had my hands full tackling those problems. When I realized the true self, I noticed that no problems were occurring to me. The problems certainly happen, but it is to the life, not to the true self. The true self was not affected by any problems in my life. If so, I can accept any problem. I am the true self who is not affected by it, even if I am tackling the problem of life.